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It just hit me that I’m going to off to college in a few hours and I don’t think I’m ready…

I spent my whole life preparing for this and I can honestly say, I don’t think my previous schools prepared me enough for this. I’m scared because UCI is such a prestigious school with all these students that got high test scores and passed like 10 AP exams and were valedictorians and then I only got a 1510 on my SAT and only passed ONE AP exam. And the thought of living on my own scares the shit out of me because if I fuck up, I can’t restart as easily as high school and I won’t have the support system of my mom. I don’t think I’ll make it. I’m not good under pressure and college is all pressure. It’s also scary how college is just one more step towards adulthood. I mean, technically graduating high school was but I chose the path I know best and eventually I can’t keep running away from having to get a job, pay bills, and raise a family. It’s scary thinking that I spent my whole life just for that. And I’m scared I’m gonna fuck it up like i do with everything else.